I have such an erratic sleep pattern of late, I worked yesterday night until 5 a.m. (aight, I did watch a few episodes of himym too) and then I stayed in bed till past noon! Though on a bright side, I got two job calls (there is some more complication than just that…but at this stage I won’t think about it) and the online campaign for my brother’s company has kicked off really well. It made me happy to see him happy
Also, I have been putting down things I want to do in the near future and I feel optimistic about stuff. Perhaps, 2013 might be an amazing year after all =)
Just because two things are good individually does not mean they are good together. Somethings, no matter how good they are; are not meant to be together and people just have got to learn to accept that.
I have a fancy clock in one of the rooms at home, it shows the date and month along with the time. And so, during one of those daydreaming phases I tend to have, I realized that it is exactly 9 months to the Big B-day! I wish I could somehow have *all* my loved ones with me on the day this year. And as I typed that last sentence I had another realization! X will be here!!! Even if I can’t really see him, knowing he is much closer will feel good.
When I was younger, we were asked to write down our resolutions on/before new years eve. At first, my sole purpose in doing that would be to make a list longer than my brother. I did not really think of it as sticking by them. But then I jumped from a long list to two things..to one…to nothing. So I did not make any this year either.
Sure I think to myself “It is a new year, a new beginning” but I don’t “make” resolutions as such. Though for the past two days, I have been waking up really early. I guess subconsciously I was making that new start. Instead of rolling in bed until past noon I was up and about before the alarm went off. I don’t think this will last too long but yet.
I got rid of two big boxes of clothes. Feels good. And yes, that is huge, because I am the kind who has a hard time throwing/giving away stuff because I feel like I need it just the day after I get rid of them. But I did it and I am proud of myself
Also, I am trying not to write my “to-do” list all over the place (“trying” is the crucial word there). I need luck for that, can’t blame me, old habits die hard!
All in all, subconsciously and consciously it has been a good start to the year.
“Ted: No, it’s not an adventure, it’s a mistake! Lily: OK, yes it’s a mistake. I know it’s a mistake, but there are certain things in life where you know it’s a mistake but you don’t really know it’s a mistake because the only way to really know it’s a mistake is to make the mistake and look back and say ‘yep, that was a mistake.’ So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake, because then you’d go your whole life not knowing if something is a mistake or not. And dammit, I’ve made no mistakes! I’ve done all of this-my life, my relationship, my career-mistake-free! Does any of this make sense to you? Ted: I dunno, you said mistake a lot.” (HIMYM, imdb.com)
I sort of agree with Lily here, we don’t have to always beat ourselves up about making mistakes and the wrong choices. How else will we know when you do it the right way? Because many years down the line, these very mistakes are what make you what *You* become and mostly (if not always) we learn from these and we become smarter, wiser and better. So, here is to another year of making mistakes and stumbling, to a year of not knowing exactly where you are headed but enjoying the ride, to celebrating a quarter of a century and to carpeing diems.